my heart is bleeding

[silent scarf]

helloo everybody
this is my first attempt to write in this site .. i''m looking for any place where to breathe..
frankly speaking i'v chosen this forum of english since it's the only way to be free in my home and say whatever i want without feeling of fear from any person
i adore english and my dream was to be a teacher of english at university ...but my dream evaporated because of a silly reason ...
ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
a silly reason will prevent me from intering the university rather than being a teacher at it...
oh my loooooooooord i'ml suffocating looking for any sister helps me in surviving
........... your sister NADA needs u ... I AM SUFFOCATING

[miss.cool]

hello silent scarf

how it happened u didnt get ur bac or what
tell us maybe we can help u a bit

[Sadinne]

Hi there Nada =o

Well, first of all you've came to the right place, I'm sure that we'll be more than happy to help you out ^^

I think you have a beautiful dream, and english really is a passion for everyone who's in this forum =P

I think you should start by telling us what's wrong? What's keeping you from doing what you want?

[silent scarf]

hello dear
slight optimistic to see ur reply
i'm waiting from the moment i wrote for any person to discuss with
i'm really full up i want to scream from the depth of my heart
ok miss cool
NADA was a pupil at a secondary school was leaving her life
like any girl in her age
dad forced on me putting hijab..i refused because i knew that the second step was to be stopped from study
i put it my first year & was an excellent pupil..unfortunately at the middle of my second year my teacher of sports exposed to me marriage .. i strongly rejected him & begged him not to go home or send to my father
but the silly teacher insisted and went to my father and told him that he wanted me as a wife

oooooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

i'll never forgive him

dad of course refused and accused me that there was a relation between us

i cried ...i swear ...but in vain

he said '' you marriage so stay at home ..no study
.. ''
i was shocked and didn't know what to do

i fell ill for a long time .. only mum suffered with me

he has never cared about my illness or my feelings

as i've never forget my love to study
it was a greeeeeeeeeeeat hurt



IN FACT HE PREVENTED ME FROM CONNECTING MY FREINDS

even here i feel always that he is after me checking my deeds

english is the only thing he doesn't understand

i'm waiting ur reply pleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeez don't neglect me

[silent scarf]

Hi there Nada =o


Well, first of all you've came to the right place, I'm sure that we'll be more than happy to help you out ^^

I think you have a beautiful dream, and english really is a passion for everyone who's in this forum =P

I think you should start by telling us what's wrong? What's keeping you from doing what you want?



OH dear thnx ..i start feeling ease to find such white hearts
i wrote my matter
iwith i could smile
i wish i could stop these feelings

looking for sisters

[rola.29]

is he crazy?? what's this sad story ... tht's really too hard
oh darling tht's really the worst story i ever heard
That God be with u

[miss.cool]

hello dear
well i was readin ur story n i was about to cry
im really sorry for what happened
u seem a good girl but life didnt treat u well
n ur dad he's so rough
i dont know how u survived
just pray to god sweety n ask him to help u
try to talk to him n make him understand that u had nothin to do with that 'sorry for the word) freakin sycho teacher
whats wron wit him
if u have brothers talk to them maybe they can convince ur dad to sent u back to school
or uncles
or even ur mom
when did it happen im sur he's calm now
dont stop believin hun
be optimistic

ur dream is to study english n become a teacher
hun dont worry
كاين ربي
when u solve ur probleme with ur dad n he accepts that u continue ur study
ياك كاين لقراية بالمراسلة
و تكملي و تجوزي الباك و تقراي انجليزية و نشوفوك استادة ان شاء الله

عسى ان تكرهوا شيئا و هو خير لكم
بالاك شافلك ربي فيها خير
بالاك كون بقيتي تقراي بعيد الشر هاد الاستاد كشما يعملك مشاكل و باباتك يقتلك ماشي غير يحبسك من القراية

so dont worry
try to talk to ur dad n talk to him smoothly dont cry
try to convince him that u have a dream n all u want is study nothin more


و ادعيلو ربي يهديه ان شاء الله و يهدينا كامل اختي



peace

[Sadinne]

Hey there sweetie <3

I'm so sorry for everything that happened in your life so far, I can't say that I know how you feel, but I know that you're hurting a lot, and I also know that god will put an end to your pain eventually.

So, first of all you should stop hurting yourself, "Tzidi 3la rohek" like we say, stop thinking about the past, or what could've been if you finished your studies, that will only make you feel even worse

Accept what happened as something that god wants you to go through for a reason that only he knows, and you know that god only tests the people that he loves.

Like some of our friends here said, try to talk to your father or to get somebody to do it, maybe he will change his mind, and talk some sens into him, don't give up hope, and more important don't you EVER give up on your dream.

Read books, read stories online, watch movies...To make your english better, actually you know what? Write about your story, make a diary in enligsh, maybe one day it will be published as the story of one of the many algerian girls who suffer because of this kind of problems.

Your body is a prisonner in your house, but your mind isn't, so don't agonize your situation, I am in a vacation, I am at home 24/24 most of the days, and when we're in school, we're dying to be in hollidays so we can stay home, so just think of it as a really long vacation untill god gives you a way out (yfaraj rabi)

This is only temporary, you're not gonna be locked up in your house forever, god will not let you suffer untill the end of time, sooner or later something wonderfull will happen in your life that will make you forget about all these painfull years, just believe in god and believe in yoursel as well.

Whenever you feel like talking or getting something out of your chest, go ahead, I'll always be here for you <3

[** موحدة 02 **]

SALAM
dear i don't know what to say .. i always come to that forum to read about english but i rarely write a reply
your story is so Influential..
i'll be back later inshaalah

[ouchek-lil]

thank you thank you

[miss.cool]

كم ثانوية موجودة في عين الحجل بالمسيلة


مش مكانو هنا هاد السؤال

[ouchek-lil]

Do you love the eye? Do you love eye love heart??......

[silent scarf]

hello dear


well i was readin ur story n i was about to cry
im really sorry for what happened
u seem a good girl but life didnt treat u well
n ur dad he's so rough
i dont know how u survived
just pray to god sweety n ask him to help u
tr nothin more



I'm so sorry for everything that happened in your life so far, I can't say that I know how you feel, but I know that you're hurting a lot, and I also know that god will put an end to your pain eventually.

Accept what happened as something that god wants you to go through for a reason that only he knows, and you know that god only tests the people that he loves.



i really appreciate all what you said..


now i'm at prison**home ...i'v been stopped from study for 6 months


i lost the second&third trimester ... ie the year

Sometimes i forget and accept that that was out of my hands and i supplicateto allah to help me forget


dad .. i tried with him a lot but no way


my brothers are younger than me ..


nd no one in the family interferes in such problems


**



may be because it's the end of the year ..or because some of my friends werein the baccalaureate exams these feelings renewed



no way ...i'v to surrender to my destiny with acceptance or refusal no way



with u i to feel better


thnx sisters

[اناناسة]

Hi there! I present my moral support to you sister and I feel in your words that you have all the abilities that some students lack, I would like to know you more if that is ok (I am searching for good deed ) thanks for sharing

[silent scarf]

Hi sister zineb
0 yes i was so excellent pupil at school
i'll be happy to know about u and about sister cool and saddine
waitnig u sister

[miss.cool]

heloo sis

i would love to know ur name
mine is sara

well im so sorry to hear that there's no solution wit ur dad
but u still have time to convince him
the only thing dont give up
try try try wit him till he accepts

[amel nina]

oh dear, I was very touched by your story
and I can understand your feelings ans suffering
may God be with u
and I would be very happy if you accept me as an understanding sister, this forum is your home, so make yourself home, and don't be shy to ask anything because we're here to help you
your sister Amel

[Killing Spree]

may god help you

[CuTe Youya]

ok darling,
that's soo sad, I want you to know that i'm feeling the way you feel , you really revived my sensations, I was confused and thinking what a hell is this DAD!!!
don't make anything in your mind Sis, god knows your pain, it will be solved, but that's unfair
what about that ugly teacher, he screwed up your life and he went away?!!!!!, what a sucker!!!!
now dear you just have to talk to someone and clear your heart, and you'll be fine inchallah, never forget that we're here with you and we'll always be, we're your second spirit , and hold onto allah & surely he'll relive you, here with my prayers my wishes my heart and my mind,
with you forever Nada and in your help whenever you need me :)
just try to talk with your father or let your mom convince him....

[katiaou]

Words are missing , i can't imagine how you feel now darling !
it's too difficult but you should always rely on Allah because he will never leave you alone
Dreams don't come true always , some of them remain hidden in the deepest place in our hearts
waiting the right moment to be realized ...
Keep believing in your dream i'm sure that you'll get ahead one day :)

I'll be there for you if you need help , my name is Katia and i'll be happy to be your friend

[قلـــ ادمتهـ الجراح ـــــب]

hi sister i read ur story and i was close to tears dont lose espoire and ask for help from ur familly (uncle or grand father)wish u 'll find a solution
i'm with u
Best wishes for u dear

[silent scarf]

soooooooooooooooo happy to recieve such reactions from u
believe me i didn't imagine that at all
welcome then to my page dear sisters
KATIA SARA AMEL and those who didn't write their names
Nada alrayhan 18 years old
Ilive in Djelfa
even though it was forced also )i like *****ng at *****ng too
eager to know more about u

[rola.29]

hellom Nada i wish you're fine
i'm really sorry about what happened to u
i read your story before the BEM, and before sleeping I always think of u ... i'm really sorry .. if i could help ,i swear i wouldn't hesitate

i wanna be ur friend always faithful, u need to your friends by your side

i wanna ask : why didn't your teacher come again and tell to your father the truth ( that you were not in relationship with him) , i though he can deduce that u don't go nomore to school because of him .. if he loves u really, he won't leave you

i promise u that on each time i get here and find u , i'll come to speak to u ok? try to enjoy your time , to learn, to forget what happened ( i know it's hard and unforgettable) .. my best wishes for u

Rola ( it's not my real name , but just call me like that ok?) i'm 15 , and i live in Constantine