sherifbboy
2012-06-19, 08:52
I want to write just to release feeling in my heart. It really hurts when you keep it inside, I don’t want to tell friend about because it’s a kind of humiliation for me. The story began, in the morning of spring day of 2009. I was standing next to the labs about 7:30 am. Suddenly, an angel passed next to me it was a very beautiful girl wearing a green t-shirt, jeans and converse and a long earring. What attractive me she was not putting make up and her tail-horse hear style. She was gorgeous when she walked as a model. I told friend about, but I did nothing just used the eye ******** because, that’s how I am. I asked someone who knows her. He said: she is cool and her name is Amira and that’s all. I stilled looking and looking until one day when I saw her suddenly my heart beats faster.ohh shit what happen to me, this is something I don’t like and I tried to escape from. For that reason plus seeing her with an other guy I was not interesting anymore.
In 2010, I knew a very kind smart girl. She was cool, and they were friends at first I didn’t know that. The nice girl told me that all her friend is like her. By the way this year was so bad for both, because we have repeated the year. During the deliberation, she came to me and called me with my name; I astonished how she knows my name. She asked me to see her result. I saw the result but I couldn’t tell her, and it was the first time to know that her name was Sarah.
In 2011, when I repeated the year I neglected everything even the study. I came to the university just once a while, because I was busy with work. I didn’t see her too much, until the last day in that year when she gave me a teddy bear as a souvenir. I considered her as friend but as a so shy person I couldn’t ask her for her number.
In the fourth year (this year), specially at beginning I was busy with work .it was not good for me because I lost my capacity in education. When I finished the work, I stood and chat with her and her friend a lot and many times. One day I don’t know how, ohh ya in her birth day she gave me her number and I gave her mine. As a friend I sent her a message in her birth day. Day after day we chat and chat and chat. With time I became interested like before; don’t blame me my ego I couldn’t resist. I can’t because she was so special with strong personality and the super thing, she never made a relationship before .she told me that and I believed her. I told my friend before that I will find such a girl and they answered you wouldn’t find you are dreaming. I put that in my mind and I became as a thirsty man walking on a desert. Until I find an apple tree on the desert (if she read that she will know why I called her apple 3). I don’t know if my friends are correct and she’s just a mirage or she’s really an apple tree. I told you that she gets a strong personality because one day when she was telling us jocks and it was stupid and someone tell her that it was stupid, she didn’t embraced and she really knew how to deal. Also when she sings for us a manga song she was great and I really like it. The day after she attended a linguistic class with me, she was setting beside me. Honestly I really forgot that she was setting beside me because I was concentrating with the teacher and I have to do so. When the class almost finished she suggested a game, and it was nice. I liked the game and suggested for her to replay it with a real nouns, nothing in my mind just to know her more. I don’t like her reaction because she used a lot of philosophy and hit me with her hummer. I get upset and decide to never send her again (she didn’t hurt me but I just thought that). Things became good again as friends and we continue to chat with each other as usual. It became for me like a drug because during the exams I didn’t see her at all and I miss her tooooo much. The only time I saw her, it was with her friend. This friend touches her and it was normal but me as stupid and jerk guy, I became a jealous. Not only, like a crazy man I had sent her a message considering her as a wife not only a friend, I was such a fool man. This is my big mistake I regret so much and I wished if I had a time machine.
One day of Monday, I waited her to see her as usual but she didn’t come. A friend of her told me that she was sick, I sent her a message as friend ask about a friend but in the last I repeat the same mistake. She used her biggest hummer and it hurts me a lot, I really deserved. The strange thing whenever she hits me the feeling increase more and more. I thought about her every were and every time, It was getting harder because I really got saralised . I asked every one for advises even foreigners, and if I could ask Obama himself I would .but I could do nothing just ask Allah in the (sejoud ) and say: O Allah if she is good for me as a wife please make her closer for me and, if she is not get her away for me and get her out from my heart. I still waiting until to day when I asked her to reread the messages again. Something happened I don’t know what, it was like getting awake from sleeping or like I was hypnotized. I forget to say that in that morning I saw her when I was with a friend and I decide to say hi, and when I went to her the feeling was different than before, I was happy and I smiled and she wonder : what’s wrong with you? I answered nothing. During the last meeting she advised me to delete all the sms, and I did and it was like putting an ember on water. The last words I said when I am living were: I am so cool. She answered: me too, and I was really happy for that. Praise be to Allah that it’s finished that way. It was like get a big load out from my heart.
I promise you my ego, to never happen again. I will not even think about girls until I get ready .I give you my word if it happen again I am not a man. It was such a good lesson from a good teacher. She was so kind with me , she never hurts me but I hurt myself and she respects me and I don’t respect my self. When I told that she hits me with her hummer it was just an imagination because I was sick, things was good but I saw it from a different side. Nothing left to say just: O Allah makes her dreams come true. I wish for her from the bottom of my heart the success in life and in the day after. 18/19/April/2012
In 2010, I knew a very kind smart girl. She was cool, and they were friends at first I didn’t know that. The nice girl told me that all her friend is like her. By the way this year was so bad for both, because we have repeated the year. During the deliberation, she came to me and called me with my name; I astonished how she knows my name. She asked me to see her result. I saw the result but I couldn’t tell her, and it was the first time to know that her name was Sarah.
In 2011, when I repeated the year I neglected everything even the study. I came to the university just once a while, because I was busy with work. I didn’t see her too much, until the last day in that year when she gave me a teddy bear as a souvenir. I considered her as friend but as a so shy person I couldn’t ask her for her number.
In the fourth year (this year), specially at beginning I was busy with work .it was not good for me because I lost my capacity in education. When I finished the work, I stood and chat with her and her friend a lot and many times. One day I don’t know how, ohh ya in her birth day she gave me her number and I gave her mine. As a friend I sent her a message in her birth day. Day after day we chat and chat and chat. With time I became interested like before; don’t blame me my ego I couldn’t resist. I can’t because she was so special with strong personality and the super thing, she never made a relationship before .she told me that and I believed her. I told my friend before that I will find such a girl and they answered you wouldn’t find you are dreaming. I put that in my mind and I became as a thirsty man walking on a desert. Until I find an apple tree on the desert (if she read that she will know why I called her apple 3). I don’t know if my friends are correct and she’s just a mirage or she’s really an apple tree. I told you that she gets a strong personality because one day when she was telling us jocks and it was stupid and someone tell her that it was stupid, she didn’t embraced and she really knew how to deal. Also when she sings for us a manga song she was great and I really like it. The day after she attended a linguistic class with me, she was setting beside me. Honestly I really forgot that she was setting beside me because I was concentrating with the teacher and I have to do so. When the class almost finished she suggested a game, and it was nice. I liked the game and suggested for her to replay it with a real nouns, nothing in my mind just to know her more. I don’t like her reaction because she used a lot of philosophy and hit me with her hummer. I get upset and decide to never send her again (she didn’t hurt me but I just thought that). Things became good again as friends and we continue to chat with each other as usual. It became for me like a drug because during the exams I didn’t see her at all and I miss her tooooo much. The only time I saw her, it was with her friend. This friend touches her and it was normal but me as stupid and jerk guy, I became a jealous. Not only, like a crazy man I had sent her a message considering her as a wife not only a friend, I was such a fool man. This is my big mistake I regret so much and I wished if I had a time machine.
One day of Monday, I waited her to see her as usual but she didn’t come. A friend of her told me that she was sick, I sent her a message as friend ask about a friend but in the last I repeat the same mistake. She used her biggest hummer and it hurts me a lot, I really deserved. The strange thing whenever she hits me the feeling increase more and more. I thought about her every were and every time, It was getting harder because I really got saralised . I asked every one for advises even foreigners, and if I could ask Obama himself I would .but I could do nothing just ask Allah in the (sejoud ) and say: O Allah if she is good for me as a wife please make her closer for me and, if she is not get her away for me and get her out from my heart. I still waiting until to day when I asked her to reread the messages again. Something happened I don’t know what, it was like getting awake from sleeping or like I was hypnotized. I forget to say that in that morning I saw her when I was with a friend and I decide to say hi, and when I went to her the feeling was different than before, I was happy and I smiled and she wonder : what’s wrong with you? I answered nothing. During the last meeting she advised me to delete all the sms, and I did and it was like putting an ember on water. The last words I said when I am living were: I am so cool. She answered: me too, and I was really happy for that. Praise be to Allah that it’s finished that way. It was like get a big load out from my heart.
I promise you my ego, to never happen again. I will not even think about girls until I get ready .I give you my word if it happen again I am not a man. It was such a good lesson from a good teacher. She was so kind with me , she never hurts me but I hurt myself and she respects me and I don’t respect my self. When I told that she hits me with her hummer it was just an imagination because I was sick, things was good but I saw it from a different side. Nothing left to say just: O Allah makes her dreams come true. I wish for her from the bottom of my heart the success in life and in the day after. 18/19/April/2012